Love is not made, gained.
Love is not even earned or won.
Love just simply is.
Left.I have neither hearth nor home.
Time nor gold.
This world has taken much from me.
But what I do have.
The moment.Some might say.
That in that moment we were infinite.
But I do not believe so.
In that moment, there was only me.
And there was only you.
And thats all I needed.
UntitledI fear the hands that ink these words shall end my life.
But will all my heart I hope to continue to see you.
So with these words I shall try and redeem.
These hands of their predetermined deed.
LoveFluttering, floating softly in the air.
Taken to and fro by the breeze.
Locations seen that could no be believed.
Till the wind grabs and shreds.
Scraps CombinedThe monsters in my head are throwing a party.
And I'm not invited.
They've got me trapped. in my skin
And I'm not sure if I'll ever be me again.
I'll pound on the walls of this cage.
I'll not stop till you know my despair.
I'll make these words till my heart breaks.
I'll shape these thoughts till I feel safe That you know how much I care.
The space between us is cavernous.
But I wouldn't have anything less.
Yes I have this cellular phone.
But I've never felt so alone.
You're nothing but an instant away.
But I know your so far from me.
TrappedNow it may seem that sadness is all I am.
But I can promise it is only the penultimate.
There is only love in my mind if you went to open it.
It is not all I am, but agony as always is enough to condemn,
A person, a being trapped by their own fragile little mind.
To be crushed and pushed down by the world around you.
And you grew up thinking "That they wouldn't do this. It can't be true"
Through my pain I will still do I can to be kind.
Because I never lost the memories.You can be addicted to a certain kind of sadness.
My longing for you has gone on so long.
To imagine me without it would be madness.
I always imagined you were to far gone.
Now do I reply? What do you say?
When happiness is a step away.
Behind a door.
But behind that door.
Could be despair just as easily.
How do I step forward,
When It could snap the only string,
that's keeping me together.
Ice cream, pavement
Melting dreams down the grille
Blue eyes crying, a hug from Mom
But still leaving a sense of loss
No kind words can comfort
Nor ease the pain
Little messagesJust when another lonely day, starts to bring me down,
I could be out shopping or just strolling around.
I think of you of course, as I always do.
My dearest love, I´m still missing you.
My sadness, it begins to show,
it is no use, the tears just flow.
Then your spirit seems to talk to me,
cos everywhere there´s a message I see.
Messages on book covers, tell me" I should trust in me".
even on some bath salts, says "don´t worry be happy".
"Keep your chin up", "let your angel always be your guide".
It´s then I know you´re still there for me, always by my side.
The tears still flow, they always will
but now I know you are with me still.
It brings me comfort, it picks me up.
I know for sure, I´ll always have your love.
Poetry by Suzanne karbach November 2014
StargazingThe stars are watching me tonight
as I am gazing at them too,
and imagine what it feels right
beside the one I love; It's you.
I picture you as one of them,
illuminating from afar.
I'll gaze at you, like precious gem,
and dream that we will be at par.
And Everything Was BlueAnd everything was blue
but nothing was sad
How was I supposed to know
it would (almost) be you?
It was just my mind
I just liked your jeans
and your eyes
And then you walked
through the doors
taller than before
It was just my heart
And I just liked your eyes
and your smile
Then I learned your ways:
one hand on your hip, one knee bent
the face of a tired man
and the veins of a kid
There's a roar behind
your tightrope lips
That can disarm, strengthen
a silence, a shyness
a jazz 'n' blues aorta
the definites before
"...kinda", "...maybe", "...sorta"
It was just my head and heart
not knowing what to do
I just loved
being near you
It started with a flash
of teeth to
a tease, a salute,
then everything was blue
I Failed YouSo many ways
This could have gone
With a fake dawn
Is this our fate?
Is it too late?
To cut the tether
I've failed you
I wish I could atone
For what I put you through
But I’m already alone
Never Let goA few words is all I need
I swore the knife wouldn't make me bleed
But I fear the time has come at last
For me to return to the past
The one place I cannot survive
At least then I wasn't alive
The last place I want to be
All I want is you with me
I want nothing but your smiling face
The one thing I desire is your embrace
Is there any way to let me know
I swear I won’t let you go
I know.I see those moments that we were happy.
Forever encaptured by that oaken framed glass.
Those memories shall forever be locked away in my golden vault.
But I think the issue is that we won't have them anymore.
Our tea scented home would never be crowded with our aroma.
Our burning fireplace won't be relit.
Those chairs outside would never again be used.
We both have a different road.
One that has million of paths, and thousands of passages.
But something is odd.
Even though I know this..
I still hope and crave for a day where I can hold onto you.
I mourn and lament for that one moment where our hands would brush..
But our lives are different.
And I am letting go.
ExistI met you before we could drive
I've liked you longer than you realise
I noticed you before fancy phones
I noticed you before fancy clothes
I saw you when you said you were nothing
I saw you when you were my everything
I was the one to say things will get better
When you were the one feeling under the weather
I was the one saying it'll be alright
When you text me in the dark of the night
I was the one who poured out my heart
My word were wasted so I turned them into art
I met you before we could drink
I loved you more than you think
I noticed you before you had money
I noticed you before you called her 'Honey'
I saw you when she cheated and lied
I saw you through tears than you cried
I was the one saying she's not worth your time
Secretly wishing that you were mine
I was the one with a drunken kiss
Stupidly hoping it could be more than this
Because to me you exist.
The Savage Setting SunI stood upon a growling rock
Amidst a rabid sea,
And looked into the shutting eye.
That glared right back at me.
And as I stared into the eye,
This savage setting sun,
I could not help but shed a tear
To see its life was done.
The glint of red upon the waves
Did slowly seem to slip
Behind the gold horizon like
A fleeting funeral ship.
And in a feral funeral chant
The ocean seemed to roar.
I faintly heard the pipe of Pan
That howled upon the shore.
The wind joined in this symphony.
It howled with dancing Pan
And echoed through the hallowed earth
And through the hearts of man.
The innocence of savagery,
Barbaric songs of yore
Like wild Cuhullin cried
And then were heard no more.
The glowing eye was finally shut;
The ship had finally gone
Far, far away into the deep
And silent great beyond.
The waves then ceased their feral chant,
And Pan his flute’s sweet trill;
The wind then ceased it’s mighty howl
And all the earth was still.
I stood amidst this silence and
I beat my throbb