Love is not made, gained.
Love is not even earned or won.
Love just simply is.
Left.I have neither hearth nor home.
Time nor gold.
This world has taken much from me.
But what I do have.
The moment.Some might say.
That in that moment we were infinite.
But I do not believe so.
In that moment, there was only me.
And there was only you.
And thats all I needed.
UntitledI fear the hands that ink these words shall end my life.
But will all my heart I hope to continue to see you.
So with these words I shall try and redeem.
These hands of their predetermined deed.
LoveFluttering, floating softly in the air.
Taken to and fro by the breeze.
Locations seen that could no be believed.
Till the wind grabs and shreds.
Scraps CombinedThe monsters in my head are throwing a party.
And I'm not invited.
They've got me trapped. in my skin
And I'm not sure if I'll ever be me again.
I'll pound on the walls of this cage.
I'll not stop till you know my despair.
I'll make these words till my heart breaks.
I'll shape these thoughts till I feel safe That you know how much I care.
The space between us is cavernous.
But I wouldn't have anything less.
Yes I have this cellular phone.
But I've never felt so alone.
You're nothing but an instant away.
But I know your so far from me.
TrappedNow it may seem that sadness is all I am.
But I can promise it is only the penultimate.
There is only love in my mind if you went to open it.
It is not all I am, but agony as always is enough to condemn,
A person, a being trapped by their own fragile little mind.
To be crushed and pushed down by the world around you.
And you grew up thinking "That they wouldn't do this. It can't be true"
Through my pain I will still do I can to be kind.
Because I never lost the memories.You can be addicted to a certain kind of sadness.
My longing for you has gone on so long.
To imagine me without it would be madness.
I always imagined you were to far gone.
Now do I reply? What do you say?
When happiness is a step away.
Behind a door.
But behind that door.
Could be despair just as easily.
How do I step forward,
When It could snap the only string,
that's keeping me together.
SeafoamI think that perhaps I will live life alone
And die silent and soft in my vagabond home
Outlive the people who still know my name
And through my departure, leave earth just the same
I'll leave no one behind me to cry in the night
I'll leave no great sorrow or absence of light
But if I end up leaving someone behind
And I sleep, uninvited in thoughts in your mind
I have no great wisdom to banish your sorrow
No special thoughts for a brighter tomorrow
But please, dear friend, if you find yourself able
Don't strap me down to a cold metal table
Don't paint my face or polish my nails
Or set me up in a box and peer in through the rails
Just wrap me in cotton and rock me to sleep
And lower me into the billowing deep
Don't let me rot in a box in a grave
I want to dissolve into seafoam and waves
Live Life, Be BraveSo the morning has once again broken
Into shattered pieces of a brand new day
And I’m trying to avoid asking myself
If I’m here and if I’m feeling okay
You see, yesterday I fractured my mind
Now today I am avoiding the cracks
That pave my path towards recovery
But one day I promise I’ll get back
‘You will get back to where exactly?’
With puzzled faces I hear my friends ask
To a point where I feel I am capable
Of completing simple every day tasks
That each one of you will take for granted
But are the fabric of my sanity
That I will weave into a blanket of hope
To shelter my mind from misery
Now the evening has once again arrived
Bright lights ask if I am here or there
So long as I am where I am loved
My reflection and I don’t really care
Because I know I am stronger than this
I am more than the intrusions my mind craves
A 'no entry' sign now greets them at my door
It’s time to just live life and be brave
I'm happy to dieSomeone once told me
That I was the sun.
I shone oh so brightly
But now that's all all gone.
I've tried to be happy
But some things don't change.
I just feel more crappy
The more that I stay.
So I'm gonna leave,
No time for good-bye.
So fuck all you bitches!
I'm happy to die.
Stand UpYou let them hold you down, with fear,
Their cruel words are all you hear,
And you wont speak up, from where you lay,
If you don't stand up, here you'll stay.
Were both survivors, you and I,
But you'll never be free if you don't try,
I know its easier to stay this way,
But you only have this one chance to break away.
Stand up, stand your ground,
Use the voice you just found,
This is all a game you'll no longer play,
Because if you let them win then you will pay.
They can't hold you down forever,
Use your brain, you're much too clever,
To let them walk all over you,
You're stronger than that, you know its true.
Because you're stronger than you've seemed,
And smarter than they've gleamed,
You're better than them by far,
Stand up, show them who you are.
TimeIf time had stood still
before our last goodbye
then we could be together still,
still by each other´s side.
I would tell you all the things,
I´ve longed so much to tell you.
We`d take each other by the hand
our precious love would continue.
They say time is a healer
but time itself won´t tell,
if broken hearts can ever heal,
when missing you is hell.
The time waits for no man,
it races by each day.
The days alone become lonely years
with nothing left to say.
Accept maybe thank you my love,
I was proud, so proud to be your wife.
Thank you for your amazing love,
the way it influenced my life.
Poetry by Suzanne Karbach. 22nd January 2015
Too ColdThe day is long,
the wine has gone...
I’ve nothing left to offer.
And outside there,
are trees stripped bare,
I think, with me, they suffer.
The cosy fire
retains your ire,
It does not warm me through.
The ashes shift,
as did the rift,
that widened as rifts do.
I count the hours
and icy showers.
Outside - chill winds do blow
thin and comfortless.
It’s cold enough for snow.
I wait for night,
to ease my plight,
to pile the blankets on.
But no amount
of blankets now
can warm me since you’ve gone.
What If I Can't Forget You?What if I can forget you, and why won't your voice get out of my head?
What do you think about before you
Go to bed?
Is it selfish to ask you think of me?
Or do you really just not care.
I'm ready to just leave these feelings be.
These feeling that are other worldly.. it just isn't fair.
Words cannot express how happy you make me feel.
Even our little talks leave me wanting more.
This is too much to bear too much to deal.
And in the end what are these feelings even for.
To be tossed aside and pushed away.
I can only pray that I'm more to you.
For now my soul will continue to pay
For falling in love with you.
MonsterThe light that shined in your eyes for me has been darkened forevermore
My mistakes have done more damage than my words can restore.
I wish that I could rewind time and stop myself from causing you pain
You tried so hard for so long to help me, but I threw it all down the drain.
I let one tear become more important than the millions of smiles you had painted upon my face
I took for granted the heart that you trusted me with, a precious thing that nothing can replace.
So tightly to me, did you once cling
And in return I made you feel like your sacrifices didn't mean a thing.
I hate myself for all that I have done
For destroying the heart that could shine brighter than the sun.
I wrapped my hands around it and squeezed until I felt it breaking
All that we had wanted and worked for, I was forsaking.
Had I not become this monster, I would never have to feel lonely
Both now and then, I have loved and wanted you only.
But I only thought of myself and didn't see you losing your smile
Don't CrySoak your hands in blood
From my hearts final flood
After all of my pain
At last it can drain
I’m tired of being alone
But my heart has turned to stone
The doors have been sealed
I will never be healed
I know someday I’ll die
But I hope you won’t cry
You never should have cared
My pain should not be shared
It’s mine to carry
And mine to bury
But its hold was too great
I broke loose too late