Love is not made, gained.
Love is not even earned or won.
Love just simply is.
Left.I have neither hearth nor home.
Time nor gold.
This world has taken much from me.
But what I do have.
The moment.Some might say.
That in that moment we were infinite.
But I do not believe so.
In that moment, there was only me.
And there was only you.
And thats all I needed.
UntitledI fear the hands that ink these words shall end my life.
But will all my heart I hope to continue to see you.
So with these words I shall try and redeem.
These hands of their predetermined deed.
LoveFluttering, floating softly in the air.
Taken to and fro by the breeze.
Locations seen that could no be believed.
Till the wind grabs and shreds.
Scraps CombinedThe monsters in my head are throwing a party.
And I'm not invited.
They've got me trapped. in my skin
And I'm not sure if I'll ever be me again.
I'll pound on the walls of this cage.
I'll not stop till you know my despair.
I'll make these words till my heart breaks.
I'll shape these thoughts till I feel safe That you know how much I care.
The space between us is cavernous.
But I wouldn't have anything less.
Yes I have this cellular phone.
But I've never felt so alone.
You're nothing but an instant away.
But I know your so far from me.
TrappedNow it may seem that sadness is all I am.
But I can promise it is only the penultimate.
There is only love in my mind if you went to open it.
It is not all I am, but agony as always is enough to condemn,
A person, a being trapped by their own fragile little mind.
To be crushed and pushed down by the world around you.
And you grew up thinking "That they wouldn't do this. It can't be true"
Through my pain I will still do I can to be kind.
Because I never lost the memories.You can be addicted to a certain kind of sadness.
My longing for you has gone on so long.
To imagine me without it would be madness.
I always imagined you were to far gone.
Now do I reply? What do you say?
When happiness is a step away.
Behind a door.
But behind that door.
Could be despair just as easily.
How do I step forward,
When It could snap the only string,
that's keeping me together.
A Sinner's LullabyHush little baby,
Don’t say a word.
The lines between good and sin
Close your eyes,
And say goodnight.
You’ll find your light.
Have sweet dreams,
My dear young love.
You’re barren of.
Hush little baby,
Rest your head.
Your shining hope
Is not yet dead.
Shove me under cold watersWhy is this world so cold?
Why do their stares match their hearts?
What did I do to them..?
I was born this way priest..
Why do your followers hate me so much?
Why do they wish to burn me on a stake?
Why do they chant for me to burn in Hell?
Have I truly done anything wrong?
Is being born like this a sin?
Why is hiding who I truly am gonna save me?
Priest..Will you baptise me today?
Will you pray for me, every night before you close your eyes?
Or will you shun me like your followers have?
Is your religion just smoke and mirrors?
What do I have left to hold on to?
Shove me under cold waters, priest.
Or I will plunge into them myself...
Mirrored EyesMy mirrored eyes
Reflect what people see
Not my lies
But yet it’s me
Cast the shadow
That steals my form
Release the arrow
Unleash the storm
The damns break apart
Sealed inside no more
It took but a single dart
To penetrate the core
You've unleashed a sea
That was locked away
Deep inside of me
All my fears are washed away
But then I return
To the place I flood
What didn't burn
Is stained in blood
I clean the mess
I left behind
The game of chess
At last aligned
Broken LetterSometimes I wake to silence,
And my heart breaks again.
Sometimes I hear your laughter
in the echoes of the rain,
some times I feel your hand
touching mine, and feel the pain
as I remember you are no longer there.
If it would mean that for a day
I could walk with you,
I would sell my soul
for a chance to make that true.
If I could hold you for a moment
I know I could make it though,
but I can't, and darkness fills me.
I think some times how easy
it would be for me to die.
I lie awake and think of you,
alone I sit and cry,
and in the shadow of my pain
I cling to life and try
to be someone that you can view with pride.
Each day I work my hands
till they bleed and break.
each night I sit and suffer
as I relive each mistake,
Always have I loved you,
without you here I fear I'll break.
But for you I will try to hold on.
In my dreams you call my name
asking why I let you go.
You look on with teary eyes
such inner pain your face will show,
and wake in tears of anguish
JackCarve out my inside
Leaving me hollow and cold
With a fake smile
And a falsely burning heart
Too soon I’ll just rot away
It all means nothingThose months I spent with you.
Did they really mean nothing?
Do you really want to hide me from everyone?
What am I gonna be for you?!
Just a fucking ghost?
Why does this hurt so bad?
This feeling of impenetrable loneliness,
this darkness that surrounds me everyday!
Didn't you understand the love I felt for you?
Didn't you understand how long I wanted us to mean something...
It means nothing!
Everything we ever were is nothing!
Little BirdHello little birdy,
Won't you bring me along.
I see you chirping so beautifully,
a very sad song.
You fly with grace,
And fly with speed.
Chasing your other birdy friends,
Way up in the trees.
Won't you stay a while,
Little birdy, with me.
I need someone to sit here,
And sing with me.
But your smart,
Little birdy, just you fly away.
Don’t stay with the girl,
That has lost her way.
A Pair of Blue Eyes
Oh hark, to my surprise,
All I see are those same blue eyes
The same eyes filled with wonder,
Filled with mystery
Which led me to ponder what
Became of thier history
The pair of blue eyes that haunt me
The same eyes that taunt me
I see them in the darkest shadows
Rising up, hitting me like arrows
I feel drawn to thier light,
They can be as black as night
With that a lot can be told
Eyes are windows to the soul
The pair of eyes that tease me,
The same eyes don't appease me,
They try to push me away
And thought there is danger; I must stay
Those same blue eyes hold a secret I want to see
The person who owns them, means so much to me.